I hate it when you see someone you’re crushing on and your stomach decides it wants to jump out of your esophagus
Remember that post yesterday about my teacher and talking to her well today I told her I didn’t want to go on that trip and she got upset and disappointed in me and I told her I didn’t feel comfortable going then I got upset and told her sorry and she told me not to apologize and at that point I was crying and I went to lunch and was in a bad mood the rest of the day. I also stayed after school with a friend to help her with a project and we had to go over to the building where that teacher was and right as we were walking up to the building she was walking out and she saw me and was like “Smile Amanda” and I gave a phoney smile and tried to walk past her without making eye contact but nooo she didn’t stop, she pulled me baaack into her room and talked to me. She’s like “Are you just going to try to ignore me from now on?” And I shook my head no and was quiet a lot of the time and then I told her something I shouldn’t have.. I told her she was like a mother figure to me and then her lip started to quiver and im thinking “oh god oh god oh god please dont cry please please please” and she starts crying and then I start crying and she’s like “Then why dont you come! Im begging you to come, Amanda! ” and I just gave in… I said yes and hugged her and OH MY GOD I TOLD HER THE DAY BEFORE I DIDN’T WANT TO BUT SHE’S BEING MOTHER HEN IDK WHAT TO DO I’VE NEVER BEEN PUT IN THIS SITUATION!
this is a follower appreciation post because if you think about it when 1 person follows you it’s not just a number it’s like a whole real person who breathes and eats and hits its pinky toe into furniture i mean it has legs and everything DO YOU REALIZE HOW MUCH OF A BIG DEAL IT IS
although it looks like I’m calm when you touch me or even bump into me, I’m actually freaking out inside.